Artist Statement

I consider myself nomadic lacking genuine connection with people. Living on the edge, hustling from one end of the world to another. In all my adventures, I was barely happy, struggling with depression. A feeling I was tired of explaining to people. Letting them understand that I could not control this irritably drown in sadness feeling.

This feeling had a template, it showed up during my monthly cycle. I started observing it more in 2016 when I was placed on anti-retroviral drugs surviving tuberculosis. The doctors claimed it was a side effect from strong antibiotics.

During the Coronavirus lockdown wave in March 2020, the symptoms became more severe forming suicidal impressions. I began self-educating, searching the internet for resources. I learnt I had been suffering from a premenstrual dysphoric disorder. It all made sense, I had an identity to the feelings that drove me nuts. In those moments, I documented myself. Focusing on capturing the depth of this sadness that enveloped me. Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD) is a condition in which a woman has severe depression symptoms, irritability, and tension before menstruation. According to research from Harvard, about 15% of women with PMDD attempt suicide.   Click here for self assessment

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